I work every 3rd weekend as a nurse. It’s a given, so I know what weekend I am working until infinity. Last weekend was mine to work. My daughter had a field hockey scrimmage in the rain upon which I tried to be the dutiful parent and sit out there in the elements as she was, but the rain was getting steadier and I was getting colder, so in the car went me and my 5-year-old. Got to work and it typically starts warm and cools off a lot after 11pm, but when I went it was really cold and after 11 it felt Arctic. By morning I was a little achy and cold, but figured it was from sitting out in the rain the day before. I had taken Sunday off to see the Long Island Medium, Theresa Caputo, who was coming close to me and was planned for months. I wanted to meet the other girls I was going to the show with for lunch but I chose to skip lunch for an extra 2 hours of sleep and meet them at the arena. I have been watching Long Island Medium since season 1, episode 1. I have skipped a few shows here and there, but it always ends up in reruns and marathons, so I end up with all of the shows anyway.
She comes out looking fab as always in these amazing sparkling Louboutin heels. She basically went around the room and did readings for people and she said that she kept having something about someone with a throat. None of the stories really resonated with me until she got more into details. She did other readings and said that she kept coming to that, like someone had something down the throat who went into the hospital with one thing and died of something else. This dinged to me as my grandfather. He was well at Christmas 6 years ago, went into the hospital with pneumonia, ended up on a ventilator, had a heart attack and an undiagnosed stroke to where he never could come off the vent and regain his life as before. Theresa said that whomever this dealt with they carry around a lot of anger that things were missed and a lot of guilt. She said that spirit is saying it’s ok, that it wasn’t meant for it to go the right way, that it was their time and none of it was anyone’s fault. I tried to hold it together, but once I got out to my car and on the open road I just lost it and then cried retelling the story when I got home. She may not have been looking at me or standing next to me, but that meant a lot to me in that moment. Could it have been a crossed message? Sure. Could it be fake? Maybe. But it’s what I needed that day and I hope that it lets me let go of a lot of anger around that and guilt that I had.
Not long after getting home I get that cold feeling again and it just worsens to where my joints are aching from my fingers to my toes. I check my temperature around midnight 102. Fabulous. Ok, I’m a nurse, so I start the routine of acetaminophen and ibuprofen and I am waking up literally every 4 hours when the chills come along to re-medicate. Then the fever drops and I’m sweating and hot, the fever returns and it’s chills and aches. Other than that, I had no other symptoms. I knew I had a bail hearing coming up on Wednesday so I spent Monday and Tuesday totally in bed keeping my fever under 100 degrees. Tuesday afternoon I finally decided to make an appointment with the doctor for Wednesday morning. Rapid strep positive, double ear infections, sinus congestion, check, check and check! Antibiotics written for, recommended no work for the rest of the week (we’ll see about that). I dropped off, waited for an immediately took my antibiotic then headed up to Mount Holly for the bail hearing but first lunch with someone who has been so behind me for months, who told me it was ok to do things in my own time when I was ready and for that I’ll never forget her. She’s been in my shoes so to speak, going up against the legal system and wanting to make change and she has given me great advice, even on days when I want to beat my head against the wall.
The day before this I had received my first piece of hate mail through this blog. It was pretty mean, nasty and condescending while being slightly threatening at the end. While it came from a bogus email address, it logs the IP address which traced to one location that I only knew one person who lived there. So I send a very polite email saying hey, if it’s you or someone you are close with, please let them know it wasn’t appreciated and knock it off. The reply I got was a bit hostile, so I sent a clarification back. They replied that they inquired their friend and family and all denied it. I said, ok, fair enough no big deal and wanted to drop it but it was apparently not good enough for this person. Over a 2 hour period I received 10 emails getting more and more hostile and threatening in nature. After I spoke to the prosecutor, I sent a reply to never contact me again, that I was done with them but this, of course, isn’t good enough for this person who then sent along another message (because don’t they have to have the last word) with threats and crap. It’s all crap. Being sick all week and still making my presence known to the judge and William Jordan and then having this trivial bullshit in my mailbox all day? Seriously it wasn’t that big of a deal. Some people can’t help but be sensationalists.
So I speak to the prosecutor prior to going into the courtroom, was briefed on a new counter offer that I might want to consider. Of course my first gut instinct is to reject it, but I need to think it out rationally before I say yes or no. So our game plan was that we wanted to keep the bail as is because Jordan is a HUGE flight risk, has no real ties to the area, is not really employable and has a string of repeated schemes behind him. The public defender du jour, Cedric Edwards (who at the last bail hearing, not knowing I was there in the audience said “I can find a girl, meet a girl and tell her I’m an NBA player, and if she believes it, well then she believes it” – really dude????) said that Jordan does have ties to the area, he has his parents who are elderly, that he surrendered his passport and his parents sent a letter along (because the 20 minute drive was too much?) saying his mother was ill and they needed him home. That’s interesting. First of all how can he have surrendered his passport when it was in my car the day he was arrested. It was handed over to the authorities, unless he knows he has a fraudulent passport hiding in the wings somewhere, which is possible since there was never a search warrant for his things done by anyone (so he has a photocopy of my driver’s license and likely a database of all of my personal information free for his taking when he gets out – fabulous whomever dropped the ball on this one!) In the letter to the judge it spoke of one sister who happens to live very far away towards the West Coast so therefore they have no help for his poor infirmed mum but somehow the letter neglected to mention the sister who doesn’t live far away and a host of other family members within a 15-30 minute drive. Shocking. So both sides were silenced by the judge who said that William Jordan is ENTITLED to bail and that the bulk of his bail was for the sexual assault which was no billed by a grand jury and that $45,000 was excessive for the crimes that remained. According to the “guidelines” bail could be set between $5,000-$20,000 with a 10% option. The prosecutor of course tried to tell the judge in the beginning that these are just GUIDELINES and given the unique nature of this case a deviation as warranted. The judge didn’t agree. However he did impose the maximum $20,000 with a 10% option and no contact order. So he only needs to come up with $2,000 to get out. That’s a FAR jump from $45,000. Here in New Jersey we have a VINE system that calls the victims when the actor gets out of jail. I have been waiting all day for my phone to ring. I will wait every day for my phone to ring like I did when he first got arrested. So original bail upon arrest: $60,000. First bail hearing: dropped to 45,000. Third bail hearing $20,000 with 10%. Why not a get out of jail free card? It’s all about the inmates “rights”. He has been in jail for 4 months. What about the “rights” of ALL of the victims in the past and the 30 years of hell he has put multiple women, men, business partners, friends, associates and then the extended family from those people? Where is OUR rights? In all of his years of jail time he has done less than 5 years of jail time for over 30 years of lies, manipulation, deceit and theft. I could have just been done with him after only 13 months and finding out the truth. Sure. But then there would have been at least 1 or 2 or even 3 more victims by this time and this day. So when I put it in perspective like that and when I question was any of this worth what I have put into it? Hell yes it is. With the possible future time he will do, the probation and fine line he may have to walk, creating my own law for sex by deception – hopefully the next victim will have an easier time (or really ANY victim of a career con man like Jordan) to get a law that is of a sexual assault by coercion caliber – hopefully a 2nd degree offense that carry’s some weight. No woman in their RIGHT mind would have been with a man like Jordan had he been truthful up front. That’s probably why he continues to lie because heaven forbid he have to live life on the straight and narrow, get a legal job, pay real taxes, and live a lonely life for a little while, turn a new leaf and PROVE it! *gasp* Impossible. He would rather die. He will do this until he dies, so there will be countless more victims in the future. I just hope I’m paving the way here in the US the way the other women did in the UK.
There is a lot of internal turmoil about this because of the innocent people it’s affecting. There was a lull of silence for 4 years for everyone while nobody came forward (until me, that is) and so they thought things had ended. So me coming back along has opened up a lot of healed wounds for a lot of people and I truly feel badly for that. However I have such a strong sense of prevention. I don’t want this to pop up every 5 years or so when he screws up and gets busted and it makes headlines again. Even the old headlines will linger on the internet for years and years. So even the innocent victims who want to escape this will never escape this until this man takes his last breath and at a very virile 50? It could be another 40 or 50 years of this coming back again and again. So while some may disapprove of me going public and making a crusade against this man, but in doing so, I may have saved 12 women this year from being hurt and conned by him. I could have saved a grandmother, a mother, a child from being hurt and manipulated by him. Children that his victim had prior to meeting them – he has no limits to whom he will manipulate. Right now hopefully everyone is tucked away and asleep and safe…..for now. Rest easy in this temporary peace little once because unrest will surely come again, peace will come and then more unrest. Plan for it to be a very unfortunate yet habitual cycle my lovelies. But I will be here. Mary will be here. Others will be here for you. You are NOT alone in this and there is NO shame to be had because you did nothing wrong. Say it to yourself in the mirror 10 times a day until you believe it. Then your friends will tell you, your family will tell you and you can get to a point where I am where random strangers tell you what an inspiration you are with your strength. Yes, it takes strength. And that is how he pics his victims: strong, stable females that after he ruins, he knows can still mudder on and rebuild herself in time. And I am just one of a small group who are happy to tell you their stories. Who want to keep him behind bars as long as I want. But I need William Jordan’s other victims to start putting cases together. Start at your local level because that’s where you live. If they don’t want to hear it, take it to Cherry Hill Police because that’s where HE lives. Also call your county prosecutor’s office and I would be more than happy to help you what things you can collect and what charges you can most likely get. Can I do this alone? Yes. But can I do BETTER with help? Absolutely. I’ve added a contact me form in case anyone wants to come to me privately, no info shared on here, on Facebook, to no media outlets about it. Just you and just me. Two wronged girls grabbing a latte. :0)
It’s midnight here on the East coast and that means that this sickly chicky needs to try to get some sleep before the ibuprofen wears off and the chills come back. Be the vector of change. You don’t have to hide, but you also don’t have to stand in the spotlight. Hugs to those other women out there who chose not to come forward with William Jordan. I know there are at least 3, I just haven’t been able to exactly pinpoint their identities yet. Might have to look into a private eye for this part.
Dateline is still not being shown this Friday, I spoke with my producer and she said that she doesn’t have an air time panned out yet but that is very typical in the business. Okee dokee. I trust them to do the right things, but of course my request is to get it on before he gets out of jail. So there is anxiety about him bailing out, about Dateline running too late to really impact him (though I hope it brings out my victims), anxiety about being sick for 6 days, the kids start school next week with my itty bitty baby starting kindergarten. Just an emotional week where I just grin through and keep going. Until next time…..
I’m just going to adjust my sails a bit and blow into the new wind