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Hullabaloo Over Rape By Deception

Ok everyone CALM DOWN.   Somehow the law that I had been working on with my local Assemblyman Troy Singleton got leaked out to the media and then it spread like wildfire across the internet but very few of those news sources actually came to me or Troy Singleton for a comment or information about a back story.  Someone only minimally involved made some comments but it really did the law NO BENEFIT and it’s in danger of being lost in a committee if any even picks it up thus losing it before it even takes off.  Things are done in certain orders in certain ways for a reason.  We wanted to get a little further in this process before going really public with it and because of the “well-meaning” intentions of a few people (or a group who just want to see this buried away), it’s done a great disservice.

I went to some websites that carried the “news” (I refuse to plug them here) I read some of the comments and carried out some banter with some of the people who were making comments to the various articles.  In a local Trenton paper, in the morning there were 46 comments and by the afternoon there was over 400.  I had to work Monday night so I only participated for a couple of hours, but I wrote to some of the writers of the articles and told them the back story and some of them then had a better idea of what the law was about.

Going to the comments, some of the most scathing comments were of course made by men and were mainly about 2 things;   looks and wealth.   They would say that women who wear push up bras, have breast implants, wear make up, have extensions/weaves or wear wigs should be subject to prosecution or that it’s a “gold diggers law” meaning a woman thinks she’s getting a man with  money and really he’s living in mommy’s basement.   Ok people, that is NOT what the law is about.  What in the hell happened to our morality in this world?  Since when is it ok to lie to people to sleep with them?  It’s not about LOOKS you self-centered, materialistic people.  It’s about getting involved into a relationship, and wholly deceiving the other person.  Not a one night stand kind of thing, but where either a man or woman believes that they have entered into a rewarding, fulfilling relationship and find out that their partner is a complete farce – kind of like in my case with William Jordan and his 10,000 aliases.  In my case I spent over a year of my life with a man where nothing he told me was true.  We were planning a future, a wedding, a child, moving in together and my life was completely turned upside down by the Mount Everest pile of lies.  The ONLY thing real about him was his appearance.  I gave my affirmative permission to Liam Allen, not William Allen Jordan.   I gave permission of my body to the man I thought I would be spending my future with, not the con artist, pedophile, bigamist that I found out he was.

Some people commented that I had to have been incredibly stupid and “buyer beware”.  Um, I did my research – repeatedly.  Phone numbers, addresses, email addresses, versions of the email, the name I had, any inkling of information that I had – I researched it all the time, but only ever had pieces of a convoluted puzzle. it wasn’t until I had his REAL name that the puzzle pieces fit together to make the whole picture.  He was so good and cunning at his lies, had plausible excuses for anything and everything.  I’m not some desperate whore who just sleep with anyone and everyone.  Get real, people.  I am not out to have every white lie telling person arrested for rape by deception, but there certainly needs to be a law out there that helps people who ended up in situations like mine – extreme situations.   Troy Singleton and I are still tweaking the bill to get it just right, but it certainly didn’t deserve the ignorant response that was garnered.  I would have expected a more liberal state like New Jersey to have had a better response.   It’s shocking that more conservative states like Tennessee and Alabama can pass such laws, but NJ has a problem with it?  It is because NJ is wrought with people who are just serial liars?  Who the hell knows, but the backlash was absolutely unnecessary.  One of the few people who actually came to me, was the associated press and the following article was published in San Francisco..

In addition NO WHERE is this law meant to take away, demean or diminish what victims of violent sexual assault/rape have experienced.  This law is not meant to even align itself like it – it’s just terminology.  I suffered (and still do) suffer nightmares, have trust issues and still experience paranoid on a fairly regular basis.  I feel like i was raped repeatedly over the course of 14 months instead of one violent experience and I cannot get my sexual sanctity back from that man who did this to me knowing damn well what he was doing and who he was as well as what he was portraying himself to be.

If ANYONE has any questions or concerns about this law, I am not a hidden person.  I can be found on various social medias and also through this blog.  There is a contact me form, use it.

Deal or No Deal???

Ok, so as of my last post, we hadn’t reached a resolution on the case of William Allen Jordan aka: Will Jordan, Gee Allen, Guillaume Allen, Gee Jones-Jordan, Bill Jordan, William Jordon, Liam Allen, William Jones and probably others that I’m either forgetting or just am not aware of.  Needless to say it’s variations on a theme.  So apparently either he nor his attorney did NOT appreciate my public awareness of this case (whatever) but out of courtesy I did not post as frequently as I used to because frankly I just didn’t want to piss someone off who could do me a favor before this is all said and done, i.e. his attorney and my prosecutor.  Now at the first status conference with the prosecutor on my case, he said we would give this a 3 strikes and we’re out frame of mind:  basically offer him 3 chances at a plea deal an if he doesn’t take it, screw it, we go to trial and our case is super strong between my emails, text messages (from both Jordan himself and “Tom/Marcus” from the UK from a Washington DC phone number), and then video footage that I secretly shot while wired with hidden cameras in the 2 months that it took me to build my case to the point that they had enough burden of proof to issue an arrest warrant.  New Jersey is a one party consent state meaning as long as one party consents (me) and you are being recorded (him), you don’t need the other party’s permission to record them and use it against them.   He is lucky I haven’t posted my hours and hours of footage on YouTube, but trust me, his exes have seen some of the footage.

I know, you want to know.  Did he take the plea deal this past Monday?   Well……


YES!!!!   Yes he pled guilty and took the plea deal of 3 years in state prison, restitution of a minimum of $4383, a lifetime no contact to me and my kids and he was slammed with a $15,000 fine!   WIN!!!!    At first the prosecutor said that there was not going to be a resolution that day and I reminded him about his 3 strikes rule.  He said he didn’t recall saying that, but he is at a variety of cases on a weekly/daily basis and mine only came along once a month, so it’s easy for him to forget, but for me this is my ONLY case and I didn’t forget such a thing.  He apparently thought about it and went back to Jordan’s attorney and said that nothing will change in a month – just the fact the deal is off the table and why don’t we just get it done and over with.  Pressed with this info, he accepted the deal!  I really didn’t know if he would drag it out knowing that trial dates would be not coming until a minimum of April, then the trial and then sentencing could linger another 6-8 months, so it would have given him more time out of jail now, but he would be facing 5 years in jail as opposed to the 3 we were offering him.  Unfortunately, without revoking his bail, I couldn’t get him remanded to jail immediately and sentencing was set up for February 6th which I was told he would be sentenced and taken away immediately to jail.   Yes!!!  He had to admit everything that he had done to me.  He had to state his real name, his real age and admit that he did defraud me and take my money by impersonating a government official from the United Kingdom.  Seriously, to hear him admit that to a courtroom full of witnesses, on the record with my mom by my side crying for me to also hear him admit his crimes:  it was priceless.   I will never forget that moment and wish it was video recorded so that I could hear it again and again and again.  He admitted it.  I have been on cloud 9 ever since.

The only downside is that there have been 2 victims since he got out of jail on August 29th.  One of which he met at a bowling alley that his dad bowls on a league with and having known the father, she figured he was an upstanding guy himself.  It wasn’t until the last article on the front page of a local newspaper that her friend tipped her off to the truth and she used Google to find everything she could about him and it led her to me.  I have met her and she is absolutely lovely.  Just a wonderful person who got sucked into his world of lies, of which his father never corrected – even down to him saying he was sent to the UK to live with distant relatives as a child due to an abusive mother.  She of course dumped him the next day and hasn’t heard from him ever since.  Then there was another young girl out of the state of New Jersey who said she met him on eharmony 3 years ago and started a physical relationship with him this year:  basically after I found out about his ass and he probably knew that the thing with me was going nowhere, so on to plan B.  Unless he was setting her up as his escape clause but got arrested before he could fulfill his full plan.  He got out of jail and resumed contact with her and has the poor girl believing his mom died and he is inheriting $100,000 of which he is setting aside a trust for her and her young daughter.  I am so sorry honey, but there is NO money.  First of all, his mother isn’t dead.   I got confirmation of this from an extended family member.  Secondly, She has EXTENSIVE medical bills.  I have seen them with my own eyes and have them on my video footage.  If she died all bills would have to be paid first, the house would probably be paid off (which they have only owned for 10 years and God knows if they have remortgaged the house at any point).  As of now the house is worth about $60,000 less than what was paid for it.  Then Jordan has 2 sisters, so whatever was leftoever would have to be split 4 ways (his dad, him and his 2 sisters) and she may have a will that leaves everything to her husband.  She isn’t dead, so there is no worry.  Do you know how many time his mom has been “gravely ill”, “hospitalized” and other horrible things?   Many, many, many times.  He told me she was in the hospital and then there was a receipt in my car for Burlington Coat Factory the week before he was arrested buying little boy’s Nike sneakers.  Probably with my money.  He probably paid your bills with MY hard earned money and that pisses me off.  Whatever money he has given you since he got out of jail was probably at the expense of another woman.  I wholly intend on giving the ring back if I find out that some other poor woman was scammed out of a large amount of money at once because frankly, I couldn’t keep it.  It’s like blood money.  I didn’t earn it and neither did he – not by respectable means.  He is working at a department store.  He isn’t a nurse.   Do you know where he got that?  His victim from 4 years ago – she was a pediatric nurse.  He tends to emulate whatever he has at the moment and be a chameleon to adapt to whatever the woman needs/wants.  He has no drivers license, so why do you think he took a bus to go see you?  Because he has no car.  I’m a nurse and I make about $35 an hour.  Don’t you think a man living with his parents could afford a car?  He is probably stealing the identiy of you or your child and you are too blind to see it.  Unless you wake up, you are going to learn a very hard and very expensive lesson because he will take you for all that you’ve got or he is using you for your remote location to try to flee to and he will try to get you pregnant which will bind you to him forever and he will leave.   Whatever he is spouting, it’s all lies.  He is incapable of telling the truth because he is a psychopath/sociopath who has been doing this for over 30 years.  People keep telling me you can lead a horse to water, but you can’t make it drink.   Well you have all of the information to ditch this loser and once it’s on Dateline (still waiting for an air date and they were at court this past Monday), then the whole country will know.

Moving on, the rape by deception law that I helped to craft goes to the New Jersey Assembly tomorrow, November 13th!   I have seen the draft that is being introduced and I love it.  I will have more information on that as it comes along.  You do NOT have to be a victim and one person CAN make a difference.  FInd your power ladies and gentlemen and get out of an abusive and unfulfilling relationship.  Happiness is out there.  I have finally opened myself up to dating again and it’s been amazing.  I am happy with myself, my family and my life – at last.

Here are some articles published this week:

LoveFraud.com article

Burlington County Times (which made the front page – photo below)


Arraignment Day and the Counter Offer

I have been waiting for this day for weeks. Maybe months. The day William Jordan was arraigned officially on the charges that will actually stick to him. I knew going into it that the prosecutor was going to offer a plea deal of 4 years in state prison (of the 3-5 he is eligible for under my charges), a no contact order and restitution, which I am well aware that I’ll never see a dime of, but it’s just there for the sake of the possibility. The prosecutor was on vacation all of last week so the issues that I’ve had with the “miscommunication” had been shelved all week-long until today. I was having immense anxiety this morning as my phone calls went unanswered. I knew more than one media outlet would be there today, so I grabbed an iced coffee and headed out to the courthouse an hour early to talk to some people in advance. Once the courtroom was opened and everyone filed in, I chose my seat carefully. I knew there was a camera crew there, but I also wanted to not be in the eye view of where Will Jordan would be. I didn’t want to be behind the prosecutor’s table where he could look towards his attorney and catch a view of me over her shoulder. This way if I was behind him, he would have to blatantly turn around to see me and that would avoid any attempt at eye contact. In those minutes that I was sitting there, I’ll admit, I kind of lost it. I could just feel the emotion boiling up and I couldn’t control the tears that came. I hate any possibility of seeing him, of being in the same room, sharing even air space with that evil man. I am so thankful my mom was there and she held my hand as mom’s do and just told me that I was going to be ok, that everything was ok. She helped to keep me grounded in that moment and I reigned it all in and held it together. I wasn’t going to give anyone the satisfaction that he can still get to me.

My victim’s advocate came out to see me and asked if I wanted to talk to the prosecutor prior to the case. Of course while we were talking, the case was called, but without the prosecutor, they moved on to other cases until we came out. He told me that Jordan’s attorney wanted to counter offer something so appallingly ridiculous that I rejected it before he could get the entire offer out of his mouth: 364 days in county jail and a lifetime no contact rule that if he violated it, he could end up arrested again. Not only did that get a vehement no, but a HELL NO. I would rather he do the jail time and risk the contact with me than to let him out after such a short period of time so that he could hurt someone else quicker. I told the prosecutor, and he agreed with me that we would NOT settle for any deal that was less than 4 years. The prosecutor will only tolerate 2 more status conferences after today before demanding a trial and then Jordan can end up with 5 years instead of the 4 that we’re offering. Hey I have hours and hours of basic confessions on his crimes, so if he wants his own word vomit coming back to haunt him in front of 12 jurors and a courtroom full of spectators and reports, well please be my guess. The prosecutor told the judge today that there is this additional discovery that they had not yet acquired from me but that it was there and that they could acquire it within the next week or two. The prosecutor also assured me that he felt absolutely confident in all of our evidence that it would be a fairly slam dunk case. I feel the same way because I backed up so many old conversations, emails and was able to provide the bank records of the various bank transfers that occurred. That coupled with the audio and video I have? I have no idea how he nor his public defender can even think that he has a defensible case. Seriously? He has a long history of defrauding people for decades, what on earth ground does he have to stand on that doesn’t equate quicksand? None. I don’t know if he was waiting to see my hand of if he was just being his typical psychopathic/sociopathic self and trying to control everything around him: controlling my time, the prosecutor’s time, his own attorney’s time. At the end of the day, he didn’t take the deal, he pled not guilty and we’ll reconvene in a month.

I spoke with a couple of members of the media afterwards, notified Mary immediately of what transpired in the courtroom so that she could have immediate answers and she is also 5 hours ahead of me. I was getting out of the courthouse at 3:30pm my time which was 8:30pm her time. I always credit her with giving me my strength – or at least being the foundation for my strength in going forward with my case. The fact that she had the strength to be so public about her story – I would never have known the truth if she hadn’t made that choice. She takes criticism (as I have the last few months) with absolute grace and dignity. She doesn’t let harsh comments get to her. Her story allows me to go forward and keep pounding at Jordan and to not let myself get too down about some setbacks because I need to keep forward motion. I kept myself really busy over the weekend so that I couldn’t reflect on what was going on today and I had a chance to self reflect over the last 6 months since I found out the truth about Jordan. I think of the hot mess that I was in February through April and how every day was so stress riddled and how full of immense emotions I was then to the relief I felt after the arrest. I’ve really had a good 3.5 months to just be. I have also learned that I can’t do all things and be all things to all people all of the time. I needed to let a few things go to the wayside such as writing my book and working on my law. I needed to be a mom, work full-time and work on this case. I needed to be present while the kids were off for the summer. My son starts kindergarten this fall and I know that I can NEVER get this time back from them and will not allow Jordan to rob anymore time away from them than he already has. So I had a girl’s night with my good friend on Friday, took my daughter to the movies on Saturday and then went to Home Depot for supplies to build a firepit in the back yard. Sunday I took my son to a birthday party and then had a night out with great company afterwards. I refuse to let life stop or be paused because of Will Jordan. He robbed my daughter of 2 One Direction concerts last year, so what did I do? Got her One Direction tickets for this Thursday night in Philadelphia. I am going to make right all of the things that he did to her and she will not suffer. For the disappointments that he has given her, I’m going to turn them around. I want to continue to show my children that shit things can happen to you, but you can pick yourself up, turn yourself around, dust yourself off and keep moving. Yes, It’s ok to be mad, be sad, be angry but as long as you don’t stay in that spot, that’s what matters. I hope that I inspire her, inspire my son when he is older. Make them stronger people and less prone to ever be victims. I hope that In inspire someone else out there in the blogosphere to maybe get out of an abusive relationship or have the strength to get away from someone who may be manipulating them. It’s ok to be scared, it’s ok to cry, it’s ok to shout. Healing does come. For me it’s still coming. I wonder how I’ll be 6 months from now. Certainly in a much better place than now. I would LOVE to hope that this jerk will just take the damn plea deal and stop jerking me around because if he wants to fight it, by all means, I’ll go toe to toe with him and he will lose big time. I want to start working on my sex by deception law, but I want to be able to focus 100% on it and I also want to keep working on my book. I keep taking notes and journaling in short spurts. It will come eventually. This period will pass. I know it. More William Jordan victims may come forward. There may be new ones that come along once he gets out of jail (it’s inevitable). I’ll be here to support whomever comes along, past, present or future. Mary Turner Thomson and other victims have been a great source of support to me and I intend to pay that forward. In the meantime, this girl is going to keep moving steps forward and fewer steps backwards. Until next time……

The Big Interview and Results

So let me go in chronological order. I will start with my big sit down interview for a program that is going to air nationwide, date to be determined. It was at a beautiful home about a half hour north of me. It was really great. I have been working with the producer basically since my story broke in the media and she has been so super amazing to me through this whole process. We did hair, make up, a car service. It was really nice and it feels so tremendous that they feel so strongly about my story, about me advocating my story out to the world and informing people about my cause. It was hours of filming that ran over and as nervous as I was, they all put me at ease fairly quickly. For my first ever interview like this, I appreciated all of their feedback and calming nature. I am forever indebted to them on this. So now they have to cut down my interview, talk to some other people and splice it together to fit an hour format. It’s changed my view on how news programs come about and all of the hard and diligent work that comes from it. They also have continued to do some digging on my behalf and gave me some new info that shocked me but didn’t surprise me. I’m holding it close for now.

For whatever reason the grand jury did not convene last week and according to my victim’s advocate from the original grand jury, it goes up to a judge for review and then back to grand jury for the final indictment. So instead of me getting answers last week, I didn’t get answers until this morning. Deep breath in and exhale. The grand jury did not indict on the 2nd degree sexual assault charge. They did indict on the theft and impersonation charges which are 3rd and 4th degrees. I was absolutely devastated. This is the big charge that would get him the most jail time, which secured me a Nicole’s Law restraining order, which is what would have gotten him to be forcibly registered as a sex offender at long last. All of the above is gone. So he is looking at and average of up to 5 years in state prison for this. I had a long conversation with the Burlington County Prosecutor on this case and it was a lot to absorb in terms of the process. He told me that my charge didn’t exactly fit because I didn’t have force, bodily harm or threats. In terms of coercion, I wasn’t “mentally incapacitated” and he said that the law specifically says that this means by intoxication, hypnosis or anesthesia. I find that hard to believe that it can’t work in the terms where I had absolutely no idea who I was having sex with. He agreed that William Jordan is the scum of the earth and we both agreed that this is only temporarily stopping him. That once he gets out of jail he will start-up again, maybe a little more trepidly but he will no doubt scam again and I can just make sure that it’s incredibly difficult for him to lead anything other than a lawful lifestyle and inform women all over the area of his cons, schemes and games. Enough is enough. 30+ years and over a dozen people later, it is enough. Time to grow up and take responsiblity for life. It’s got to be tremendously exhausting to live that kind of life on a daily basis and to more than one person at a time. I was exhausted emotionally from dealing with the by-products of his psychosis. Being gaslighted and love bombed sucks. It sucks the life out of you, the hope, your efforts, emotions. It’s a life lived in daily anxiety, stress, depression and only snippets of love, life and laughter. I see that now. At the time it was seriously hour to hour in terms of dealing with him. He is such a smooth talker that when we were together he somehow made me think everything was going to be ok. But when reality hit and I had a chance to decontaminate from his love bombing, I realized that it wasn’t going to be ok. Now do this over and over and over again on a near daily basis. That’s when I actually heard from him. IF I heard from him. I know that I need to keep working on a law that encompasses rape by deception, sex by fraud, something. I need to protect his future victims. His past victims. Myself. My daughter. My son.

I told the prosecutor how afraid I was of him ever coming near me. I don’t think he would be so stupid as to mess with me ever again, but I can’t trust that. He has never been put back into the same society as his victims nor have his victims been in the same vicinity as him. One actually moved out of the country to escape him. That’s pretty severe! I also expressed my fears of him fleeing the area. He said that he would be more than ready to extradite from wherever he attempted to flee from. That he doesn’t always go after bail jumpers, but for this one he would make an exception. He would be more than happy to tack on more time, more charges, anything that could be MORE to keep him away from society. I was a bit relieved by that but at the same time I don’t fully trust the system as of yet. I don’t know if he was doing damage control because he knows I am still knee-deep in interviews and can absolutely blast him and the rest of the Burlington County Prosecutor’s Office for their lack of pulling through for a victim. Not just a single victim but the line of victims that have trailed behind me. I don’t know if he is going to go all Jekyll/Hyde on me once it airs or once production is done. I am hoping his words today were sincere, but that didn’t stop me from going to my contacts in order to take my next necessary step, even if it’s against them. I have a string of meetings, phone calls and conferences set up in the next two weeks. Yes, can Will Jordan apply to get his bail dramatically reduced? Yes. Per the prosecutor, they are going to fight to keep it as is. However it still falls on the judge’s discretion as to whether they exceed the guidelines or not. He also asked me if I planned on attending court appearances. I told him absolutely. Every bail hearing, arraignment, trial date, everything. I will be there. That is the luxury of me working nights. I can be available every day. I have sacrificed sleep before and stayed away 30+ hours on a near weekly basis to be with this man. I will not hesitate to do the same to see that he is prosecuted to the fullest extent that the law will give me and then make sure that he doesn’t con anyone for a very, very long time. Stay tuned…….

Nicole’s Law, Nightmares and Grand Jury

So a few things have happened in the last week: first I received a phone call from my friend <a title=”Joyce Short” href=”http://cadalert.blogspot.com/”>Joyce Short</a> saying that she was contacted through her blog and she told me that I was entitled to something called Nicole’s Law which allows a victim of a sexual offense to obtain a restraining order against the offender without ever having to go to court to face them.  Basically everything I have gone through for my restraining order the last month which was then denied by a misogynistic judge was for nothing.  I didn’t have to face Will Jordan in court, I didn’t have to pay attorney fees, I didn’t have to stress over date after date after date and waste my time, including calling out of work one night in order to go to court the next day.  I called my victim’s advocate and left a fairly scathing voicemail for her asking why no one ever offered this to me.  I also went to my local police department and asked them why they didn’t offer it to me either, knowing what I was going through.  Everyone said they didn’t know.  Well you can best bet, they all know now.  Nicole’s mother called both the prosecutor’s office as well as my local police department and read everyone the riot act to not know the law that she and her daughter fought so hard to obtain through their own experiences. I received a call at 11am the next morning saying that I was granted a Nicole’s Law restraining order and that the paperwork would be put in the mail for me.  I received it the very next day with William Jordan’s horrible signature on it so I knew he was served it in jail.   As of today he has spent 9 weeks and 2 days behind bars.  Nine weeks of knowing that he isn’t conning any woman out of anything, that he isn’t manipulating any woman, her children or her family for his own selfish gains. Nine weeks that I have been able to give his other victims solace for the same reasons.

This brings me to the nightmares.  For the last couple of weeks I have been having nightmares often relating to William Jordan. They’re not menacing, per se.  They are typically normal situations, everyday goings on but in my dream’s mind I know that he is an evil man and I can feel the anxiety and stress of being with him in my dream. I have also been having nightmares about work which is weird because work is a place that I find solace.  It’s a place where we generally do NOT talk about William Jordan, my case or anything else going on unless someone specifically asks me about it or if I haven’t seen a certain co-worker in a while and they want an update.  I have no problem talking about it but I know that work is somewhere that I can escape from it for the most part. I have even had nightmares of Will Jordan IN my workplace.  Talk about horrific. Sometimes I have enough wherewithal in my dream to tell myself to wake up and sometimes I am cognizant to know that it’s just a dream but can’t wake up from it and am forced to torment through it.  Sometimes I can tell my dream self that it’s not real, that it’s just a dream.  It’s hard to describe being aware in a dream.  It’s like looking in a mirror that’s facing a mirror and you see a million reflections of yourself? It’s my head telling my dream head which is having thoughts of its own.

Lastly is grand jury.  It was this past Thursday.  It’s where the Prosecutor, law enforcement and a jury of about 23 people are all convened.  It’s closed.  I’m not there, Will Jordan isn’t there, no attorneys.  The Prosecutor has to convince this jury of a majority vote on my charges and Will Jordan can get indited on them.  I know that the sexual assault charge is the most borderline one but the one I need the most to get the most amount of jail. It would be 6+ years and what carries the bulk of his bail.  Per my victim’s advocate it will take a week to get the results to where they are public.  The prosecutor did not want to talk to me, didn’t want my additional evidence and outside of my victim’s impact statement, would take nothing from me.  The day before I called my advocate just crying. I told her to tell the prosecutor on my case to please do a good job.  I just couldn’t hold my emotions back anymore.  I have been doing the dull fugue state for a while now.  Lost in the beginning and then tucked my emotions far away and focused on the tasks at hand, at the interminable “to do” list, tackle each hurdle as it came.  Part of me so wants to be done with all of this but I know I will never be done.  It will never end because if I stop then it makes it easy for him to get out, to do this again and for his victims to stay hidden.  I hope that they eventually come across me, come across Mary Turner Thomson and have the strength to come to us for help.   I hope that in the 9.5 weeks that William Jordan has been incarcerated, I have saved at least one if not multiple women from being wronged, hurt, conned or impregnated by him.  If one of the women that he has recently been with or was currently conversing with has given up on him – fantastic.  I am sure as the sun rises that there are others, that there have been others.  It’s too weird that he had a grey Honda Pilot for the first 5 months of our relationship and then nothing. I speaking with his exes, I may have been his “safe haven” that was his home base and then there might have been one who was just financial, another who was sexual, etc – a role for each woman.  Being he was talking marriage, encouraging me to go on with my education, he was probably thinking long-term with me.  I don’t rightly care.  The truth would have come out eventually and had he come to me on his own?  Who knows.  I may not have taken the road I had.  I may have given him credit for being honest with me and walked away with my tail between my legs.  I know for damned sure I would not have stayed.  He likes to reel his victims back in.  That’s where his chase begins, where it gets “fun” and “challenging” for the psychopathic mind.  I find that absolutely sickening.  I can’t envision a person without empathy, without the ability to form real and meaningful connections with people.  I’m a nurse.  My whole career is enveloped in compassion, empathy and care.  I help take care of life’s smallest and most precious patients.

I have also been blessed to have been put in touch with a bunch of great people along the way of this process. People who tell me I’m strong and inspiring which I still have a hard time believing and people I feel are strong and inspiring.  I feel like a newbie of a strange club of people who have learned to stand up to the evil in the world and at least have some pointers for me and guidance along this horrible road along the way.  I am learning new things, learning how to carve my way, taking notes, trying to remember a lot of things, names, places, facts.  It’s crazy.  I am never going to stop wanting justice for myself and other women in similar circumstances.  Think locally, act globally.  I am starting here and now and going as far as this will take me for as long as it can.  I owe it to everyone.  Keep posted on the results coming later this week!